Hello, and I hope everyone is having a good week. I am excited to write today, why? Thought you would never ask. I have been experimenting this week or should I say the last month to see some of my triggers to food. What makes me want to eat more, snack when I do not need it? Me!!
About 5 weeks ago, my close friend, Annalise called and said, "hey, let's have a spa party. I will bring everything and you invite whoever you want." I thought about it and decided, why not. We had so much fun. I remembered how much fun it is be to be a girl, a woman so, I started not only applying my make-up (which I always do the base) but, I started wearing mascara and eye liners again. I even started painting my finger nails too. After my shower this afternoon, Aimee came in and asked where I was going. I was putting on mascara and eyeliner because I could not bring myself to walk away from the counter without it, so, on it went. I looked at me and I liked what I saw and then had to come write about it. Self image is so very important. I don't do my make-up or my hair for my hubby, I do it for me. I walk straighter, I smile bigger and I feel better about myself when I pamper myself. With that, it benefits my hubby and our relationship because I feel good about myself, he feels good coming home to a wife who is secure in herself. I also find that I do not need junk food but rather that slice of honey dew or apple looks better than junk food. That glass of unsweetened ice tea is more refreshing than a pepsi. When YOU look in the mirror, who do you see? I know I have asked that question but, it seems so much more important to me today than it did yesterday. Are you bored? I was today but when I got up off the couch, FINALLY!!!!! I felt so much better stepping out of the shower and taking the time to look my best today. I also found my daughter smiled really big at me because, well, I AM her Role Model and she could tell I felt my best. She takes her ques from me. I am scared right now, every day since I closed down my daycare. I am scared of the next fork in the road and where it will lead me and my family but, if I do not try, if I do not decide to open myself up to the possibilities of greatness in my life and that I DO have something to offer, I will live with regret and regret is hard to swallow.
So, I ask you, those who are reading this and taking this journey with me, encouraging me, what will you change today that will help you feel better about yourself? I have found, people treat you the way you treat yourself and the way you value yourself. I do not mean be pompous and vain, but feel good about yourself, hold your head high, smile at everyone who passes by, look in the mirror and if you do not like what you see...Change it. You deserve it.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Goals
Goals, goals are such a necessity in life. My goal at this moment is to rid my palette of those menacing otter pops that plague me so. So according to dictionary and Wikipedia, the definition of a goal is:
goal or objective is a desired result a person or a system envisions, plans and commits to achieve—a personal or organizational desired end-point in some sort of assumed development. Many people endeavor to reach goals within a finite time by setting deadlines.
So here is my problem. I am a chronic procrastinator and now, almost at the age of 39, I have decided to make it my goal to NOT be a procrastinator any more, so, where do I go from here? I know that, A) I must committ to making good grades this quarter and fulfilling my comittment to my studies. B) clean my house when I say I will. C) commit to the goal of putting down those otter pops and walk away. D) set the goal to be healthier, more dedicated to myself and to my family and finally E) know that I am worth reconnecting with the real thinner me. Been a while since we chatted but I think it can be done, NO, I know it can be done because only I stand in my way. Sleep is the other big commitment and goal I need to set. I need to make it a priority to sleep more that 4 hrs. a night. Lack of sleep gets in the way of success and other wonderful things. I have a book to write, a voice that needs to be retrained and the ability to slap laziness down to it's knees. Now, I need me to stand up, strap on that pack and away I go. I know there is more but it will just have to wait until the next blog.
As always, working towards a better me.
goal or objective is a desired result a person or a system envisions, plans and commits to achieve—a personal or organizational desired end-point in some sort of assumed development. Many people endeavor to reach goals within a finite time by setting deadlines.
So here is my problem. I am a chronic procrastinator and now, almost at the age of 39, I have decided to make it my goal to NOT be a procrastinator any more, so, where do I go from here? I know that, A) I must committ to making good grades this quarter and fulfilling my comittment to my studies. B) clean my house when I say I will. C) commit to the goal of putting down those otter pops and walk away. D) set the goal to be healthier, more dedicated to myself and to my family and finally E) know that I am worth reconnecting with the real thinner me. Been a while since we chatted but I think it can be done, NO, I know it can be done because only I stand in my way. Sleep is the other big commitment and goal I need to set. I need to make it a priority to sleep more that 4 hrs. a night. Lack of sleep gets in the way of success and other wonderful things. I have a book to write, a voice that needs to be retrained and the ability to slap laziness down to it's knees. Now, I need me to stand up, strap on that pack and away I go. I know there is more but it will just have to wait until the next blog.
As always, working towards a better me.
Monday, August 15, 2011
It's time
Time to blog, time to evaluate a new course, time to let go of past insecurities and develop a present state of mind. It's time!
We had foreign exchange students here from Wakayama Japan last week. We were so busy going, going, going and it was fun. I loved their ambition to learn our culture. Their eagerness to learn our language and their wanting of a connection to us as a family to become apart of theirs. We did and it was fantastic. Wakayama, Japan is our sister city and every year we have a cultural exchangeof students. These students come to Bakersfield and live with a host family. We have never met before and all I can think is, "I will treat them as if they are my own, just as I would want a family in Japan to treat my child", and it was easy. Sayuka, Sayuna and Fuka were so easy to love, so easy to just enjoy and we loved showing them our favorite places. We went bowling, to the beach, ate clam chowder and fish and chips. Introduced them to salt water taffy and our beaches with sand(theirs are rocky and not sandy). I miss them so very much and when I think of them, as I am now, I cry just a bit because they have won over a part of my heart. Each girl is so very beautiful in her own way. They each call me their American mom, Chris, dad, Aimee their sister and Alex their brother who teases... I learned from them this summer. I learned that the past is the past. Learn from it and move on. Prejudice is not welcome here. I learned that the Android phone has a helluva translator and am thankful for it. Although sometimes they laughed if my slang was used and it came out funky. I learned love is given and received if your heart is open to it. I learned that using chopsticks to eat cereal slows you way down eating but it CAN be done. I learned soo much.
How did this help my weight loss challenge? I liked how they made me like myself more. Their hugs, their smiles, their joy was all wonderful and I wanted to get out and do more, even more with Aimee and Alex. I want to experience more of this life and I want my kids to experience more culture. I loved how they treated my daughter and just wanted to be with her. It's time to look at the person, not the shell. Sometimes the shell gets worn and ugly but all it needs is tender loving care and a good shine up and we can be as good as new. Tender loving care. It's time to enjoy the little things no matter how small. Wow, is it time.
We had foreign exchange students here from Wakayama Japan last week. We were so busy going, going, going and it was fun. I loved their ambition to learn our culture. Their eagerness to learn our language and their wanting of a connection to us as a family to become apart of theirs. We did and it was fantastic. Wakayama, Japan is our sister city and every year we have a cultural exchangeof students. These students come to Bakersfield and live with a host family. We have never met before and all I can think is, "I will treat them as if they are my own, just as I would want a family in Japan to treat my child", and it was easy. Sayuka, Sayuna and Fuka were so easy to love, so easy to just enjoy and we loved showing them our favorite places. We went bowling, to the beach, ate clam chowder and fish and chips. Introduced them to salt water taffy and our beaches with sand(theirs are rocky and not sandy). I miss them so very much and when I think of them, as I am now, I cry just a bit because they have won over a part of my heart. Each girl is so very beautiful in her own way. They each call me their American mom, Chris, dad, Aimee their sister and Alex their brother who teases... I learned from them this summer. I learned that the past is the past. Learn from it and move on. Prejudice is not welcome here. I learned that the Android phone has a helluva translator and am thankful for it. Although sometimes they laughed if my slang was used and it came out funky. I learned love is given and received if your heart is open to it. I learned that using chopsticks to eat cereal slows you way down eating but it CAN be done. I learned soo much.
How did this help my weight loss challenge? I liked how they made me like myself more. Their hugs, their smiles, their joy was all wonderful and I wanted to get out and do more, even more with Aimee and Alex. I want to experience more of this life and I want my kids to experience more culture. I loved how they treated my daughter and just wanted to be with her. It's time to look at the person, not the shell. Sometimes the shell gets worn and ugly but all it needs is tender loving care and a good shine up and we can be as good as new. Tender loving care. It's time to enjoy the little things no matter how small. Wow, is it time.
Monday, August 1, 2011
Hello, are you there Case, it's me, God
Well, I awoke to the phone ringing at 5:13 a.m. My heart stuck in my throat just a bit as I called the number back and heard the love of my life in pain. His chest hurt and he wasn't sure what was going on. I abruptly woke our 18 yr. old out of his peaceful sleep to go get my sweety so he could drive the car home. When we pulled over, because Chris felt sick, I noticed just how pale and clammy he felt. I immediately made him get back into the car and we went to the hospital just down the road. All I could think was, "did we screw up ourselves so much that we have sacrificed our future?" Fortunately for us, I began to just cry when the doctor said he appeared to have some inflammation in the chest that irritated and made him sick. He is ok, but, was that the Lord saying, "hello, heed my warning?" I do believe so. I have watched lately as our closest friends have gotten back to getting their health into a priority and the awesome weight loss and how great they both feel.
Cleaned out the fridge. Will be cleaning out the pantry next and next cleaning out our bodies. Chris, the kids and I are going to go on a detox that is healthy and great for us so that we can start to eliminate the garbage we do not need. What does it take to understand our bodies are our temples? I truly hope we get it now because next time well, I do not want to think about it.
Cleaned out the fridge. Will be cleaning out the pantry next and next cleaning out our bodies. Chris, the kids and I are going to go on a detox that is healthy and great for us so that we can start to eliminate the garbage we do not need. What does it take to understand our bodies are our temples? I truly hope we get it now because next time well, I do not want to think about it.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)